you know how every once
in awhile you get that sad feeling inside?
that feeling where you kinda felt
like you've failed someone?
or say to yourself,
'maybe i'm just not good enough'
well, this one has been about my father.
i was reminded yesterday that i don't have
a relationship with him.
ever since the day i was born
he was never really part of my life.
i can't recall any good memories i have with him.
now that i'm older
i'd learned to make my own decisions
and accomplished goals that i felt proud of-
like graduating from college, getting married,
and creating a family of my own...
despite the joy that i experience
in the many different aspects of my life,
he was never there to share it with me.
he didn't come to my graduation party.
he wasn't there for my wedding
(the happiest day of my life).
he didn't visit Mae when she was born-
hurts my heart.
sometimes i can only imagine that he was there during
some of those special moments.
but who would have guessed
that my father is someone so different.
how could i love someone
so carefree and so heartless?
i don't know.
i just love him so much.
maybe next life...he'll be my father again
and he'll be good to us.
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